How God Turned My Weaknesses Into Something for His Glory

 

Sometimes the areas where we feel weakest, most inadequate, or least qualified become the very places where God chooses to reveal His power and glory. Many of us have struggled with insecurities, limitations, or the feeling that we have little to offer. Yet throughout Scripture and in everyday life, God often works through ordinary people and unexpected weaknesses to accomplish His purposes.

This testimony reflects on how God can transform what once seemed like limitations into opportunities for growth, service, and His glory. It is a reminder that our weaknesses do not disqualify us from being used by God. Instead, they can become powerful testimonies of His grace, faithfulness, and transforming work in our lives.

There are moments when I look back at my life and become emotional because I can truly see how God changes a person little by little—not only spiritually, but even in the areas where they once felt weak, incapable, or unqualified. 

Before, writing was actually one of my biggest weaknesses. When I was still in elementary school, I struggled so much whenever we were asked to write stories or essays. I remember that I could not easily create or imagine stories on my own. Sometimes, I would read my classmates’ work first just to get ideas on how to construct a full story.

I still remember one of my classmates wrote about her dog being her best friend. At that time, we did not even have a dog or any pets in our home, and I was not a dog lover either, so I could not personally relate to the topic. That became one of the reasons writing was difficult for me because I realized I could not write deeply about things I had never personally experienced. I also did not want to invent stories, exaggerate, or write things that were not true just to make my writing sound good.

Then in 2017, while I was still in the Philippines, my husband and I were not yet married and had not even met in person yet. But if God was willing, we hoped to settle in Canada someday. Because of that, he enrolled me in an IELTS review class since we planned for me to apply through a student visa pathway.

One of the hardest parts for me during that season was the entire IELTS process itself—especially writing, speaking, reading, and listening. But writing became one of my biggest struggles, especially whenever the topic was something I had no knowledge or personal experience about. I felt pressured because I did not want to write with lies, exaggeration, or pure imagination in a way that felt dishonest in my heart before God.

Eventually, I stopped attending the review classes before finishing the course because the entire process felt overwhelming for me at that time, especially the writing part along with the speaking, reading, and listening tasks.

Not only writing, but speaking was also one of my weaknesses. Even during my high school years, some of my classmates and friends would laugh at my accent because they noticed it sounded different. Then, when I was already studying nursing in college, it became even more obvious to the people around me that my voice and accent were different. I had a strong accent that affected my pronunciation, and because of that, I often became shy and nervous whenever I needed to speak or read aloud.

I still remember during our classroom activities in college whenever our instructor would ask me to read something in front of the class. If the students heard my pronunciation, I immediately felt nervous and embarrassed because I knew they noticed my accent. Sometimes they would laugh, and honestly, it affected my confidence deeply.

I also remember during one of my English classes in college when we were required to stand alone on stage and give an English speech presentation as part of our requirement to pass the subject. Those students were nursing students as well, but they were not my regular classmates in most of my subjects, so I did not personally know many of them. That made me feel even more nervous and uncomfortable while standing on stage.

I was extremely nervous during that time because I already felt insecure about my pronunciation, accent, and speaking ability. Standing there in front of many unfamiliar students felt very overwhelming for me.

There was also a moment during my nursing training when I was assigned as an instrument nurse during surgery. While counting the surgical instruments, our clinical instructor noticed my accent and laughed while I was speaking, which also caused others around to laugh. Even during normal conversations with friends, they sometimes noticed my English pronunciation and laughed at me, and there were moments when it truly offended and hurt me inside. Because of those experiences, I often chose to stay quiet instead.

I was also naturally a very shy and silent person, especially around people I was not close to. Sometimes others misunderstood me and thought I was strict, choosy, or unfriendly simply because I did not talk much. I did not easily mingle with worldly activities even before I truly encountered God, so many people did not fully understand my personality.

Because of all these weaknesses, insecurities, and struggles, I became confused before and even questioned how God could ever use someone like me to serve Him or speak to other people.

I remember asking God before, “Lord, how can I serve You or tell people about You when I am not good at speaking either? I feel like I have no talent and nothing special.”

But after I truly developed a relationship with God, I slowly began to understand something important: God looks at the heart.

God understood every weakness, insecurity, fear, and struggle I carried inside. He knew who I truly was even when people misunderstood me. Little by little, I realized that the very weaknesses I once hated were the same areas God could use to reveal His strength and glory.

That is why I also remembered Moses because I could relate to him in many ways. Moses also questioned God because of his weakness in speaking.

“But Moses pleaded with the Lord, ‘O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though You have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.’

Then the Lord asked Moses, ‘Who makes a person’s mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.’”

— Exodus 4:10-12 (NLT)

When I read those verses, I became emotional because I realized that God already knows our weaknesses even before He calls us. Our weaknesses are not barriers that stop God from using us. God knows exactly how He created each one of us, and He knows where and how we can serve Him for His Kingdom and glory.

But now, when I look at what God is doing in my life, I am truly amazed. 

The very things that once felt like my weaknesses became the same things God is now using for His glory.

I never expected myself to have a blog. I never planned to write testimonies, reflections, teachings, or encouragements for others. Honestly, I knew nothing about blogging before. But suddenly, God started placing ideas, wisdom, understanding, and topics into my heart. Little by little, He was guiding me without me fully realizing it at first.

Now whenever I write, I truly believe God helps me with what I should write. He puts thoughts into my mind, gives me understanding, and even shows me something like a picture or vision in my heart that helps guide what I should say. Then I simply follow and write what He places within me. That is why writing no longer feels forced, pressured, or stressful for me like before. Everything flows naturally by the grace of God.

Even my own mother once asked me how I was able to write all these things, and I honestly told her, “It is from God. I just write, and it suddenly flows.”

That is when I remembered this verse:

“2 Timothy 2:20-21 (NLT)

In a wealthy home some utensils are made of gold and silver, and some are made of wood and clay. The expensive utensils are used for special occasions, and the cheap ones are for everyday use. If you keep yourself pure, you will be a special utensil for honorable use. Your life will be clean, and you will be ready for the Master to use you for every good work.”

Now I understand more deeply what it means to be a vessel for God. A vessel does not glorify itself—it simply allows the Master to use it for His purpose. Everything I have now is only because of God’s grace, wisdom, guidance, and the work of the Holy Spirit in my life.

This journey also reminded me that God often uses the weak things of this world to reveal His power. Sometimes the areas where we feel most unqualified become the very places where God’s glory shines the most. The gifts we have today are not always things we were naturally born confident in. Sometimes they are things God Himself develops within us as we surrender to Him.

Looking back now, I can truly say that this blog, these writings, these reflections, and every testimony I share are all by the grace of God alone. I am still learning, still growing, and still being shaped by Him day by day. But I feel so thankful, grateful, humbled, and blessed that God allowed me to be used in this way.

If God can transform someone like me—someone who once struggled even to write a simple story and even questioned how she could serve Him because of her weaknesses—then truly nothing is impossible with Him.

All glory belongs to God alone. Hallelujah!